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24 March 2007 @ 11:13 pm
JESUS it was sooooo hot today! WTF?
Current Mood: crazycrazy
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05 December 2006 @ 05:50 pm
It's this time of year already.
I've neglected this site for ages. Sorreh.

Well, uni turned out to be amazing. I'm loving learning loads of new stuff that I will actually use in the future. I'm leaning toward changing to psychology and media instead of film and media after xmas though.
Christmas! FUCK YEAH.
Love it. I'm going home on the 12th of December for 5 weeks. I can't wait, but I am going to miss so many people over that period. I'll miss Sarah, Mhairi and all the others from their floor and EVERYONE from S42! :[

Totally delighted with how I've performed this side of xmas. Two As and a B. Owned.
Current Mood: chipperchipper
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15 October 2006 @ 04:32 pm
At the moment i'm hooked on madonna, don't know if that's good for my long term health or not?

Oh baby.
I'm bored right now.
Uni's great.
Mhairi's sexual.
I have a new, amazingly cosy jacket.
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12 September 2006 @ 04:17 pm
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, IPod, etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question press the next button

Opening Credits : Michelle Branch - One of These Days

Waking Up: Madonna - Vogue

First Day At School: Madonna - Get Together

Falling In Love: Green Day - American Idiot

Fight Song:Jeff Buckley - Lilac Wine

Breaking Up: Goo Goo Dolls - Think About Me

Prom: Britney Spears - Breathe on Me [bit pornographic non?]

Life's Ok: Justin Timberlake - Rock your body

Mental Breakdown: Head Automatica - Dance Party Plus

Driving: Bright Eyes - Road to Joy

Flashback: Norah Jones - In the Morning

Getting Back Together: All Saints - Black Coffee

Wedding: Madonna - Like a Prayer [lolllol]

Birth of Child: mariah carey - to the floor [ft nelly]

Final Battle : LOOLLLL!! Destiny's Child - Bootylicious

Death Scene: Kaiser Chiefs - Modern Way

Funeral Song: Kelly Clarkson - Where is your heart?

Ending Credits: It Just Won't Do - Tim Deluxe feat Sam Obernik :/
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12 September 2006 @ 03:47 pm
A week on and I'm still longing to go home. How I'm going to manage to last another 2 months away from it I don't know; I probably won't.

I don't want to crumble and cast this opportunity aside like a piece of garbage, because it means so much to me to do this degree and become something, someone... with fountains of success. However, I can't handle feeling this low for much longer.
So close to calling a carrier and booking a flight the other day, I managed to restrain myself.

It isn't just the longing for home that's causing all this mixed emotion, it's also the undeniable loneliness I'm feeling. I've always been alone, all through school up until 5th year [ish], but now I feel like I'm going back to that. I don't feel like I have anyone here to turn to. Everyone else has paired up with someone, or so it seems, and I haven't. I'm still stuck in the center, like the dot in the middle of a dart's board.

I wasn't alone at home, I had family, friends and my cat, OBV!
Now I feel like I have nothing, just a room and an overcrowded kitchen with very little storage space for my bulgar.

I reached the decision earlier this afternoon, that if this week didn't improve [as in my feelings didn't] then on saturday I'm going to arrange to leave and go back home, because I really am not happy, no matter how much I tell myself it will get better or others do, I am no where near as happy as I could be or could have been in this situation.

We'll have to wait and see how this week pans out. I don't want to be a failure or seen as a disappointment because I know the course is right for me and that I can do well in it, but this lifestyle just isn't working for me and it shows no sign of molding into my shape.
Current Location: Room 421 Durr.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Beyonce - Work it Out
Plastic Surgery
05 September 2006 @ 02:22 pm
So I'm here, in my halls, in uni: it's better than I thought. It's easier to move on than I expected. The people I'm sharing with seem really nice, so that's okay.

Sarah's here, so that makes it all so much more comfortable. We went for a walk with two other girls last night around the campus, because the SU was packed and boiling, and the place is nice. You could have posh picnics here, with berets and cigarrettes. Oh yes. Not the latter though, gross.
Current Mood: fullfull
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01 September 2006 @ 01:47 pm
Here we go, Iain; Time to move on. I'm in the process of packing everything up for moving to Edinburgh, to study Film & Media. I'm so excited, yet so scared. I am excited to be moving on with my life, to be meeting new people and I feel comforted that Sarah is going to the same university. It means we can share the stress and turmoils of financial instability and probably watch Amelie. Oh yes.

My main concern is that I might not fit in, I might not make friends. I know, deep down, that I will, but concerns are there to eat a way at you until you snap. What if I don't like it? Any of it? FUCK!

I have to look on the bright side, of life, dudu-dudu-dudu-du-du.

I've packed all my clothes and some of my cds and dvds. Most of my music is on this laptop, thankfully. I'm taking my favourite books too, just so that I don't become a drunken idiot. Need to keep my brain fed.

Plus I'm taking my Gillian McKeith cook book and some vital ingredients for some totally healthy eating. I don't plan on living like a stereotypical student. I plan to be as financially wise as possible, which I have always been anyway. I plan to be as healthy as I am right now (I just had bulgar wheat for lunch) and I plan to eat NO takeaways.

Plans don't always come through though, do they?
Rhetorical question, ignore it.

Anyway, it's time to continue the scuttling about the house and keep up my packing momentum. I keep feeling like i'm forgetting something, but I don't know what.

Current Location: Bed Room
Current Mood: stressedstressed
Current Music: Beyonce - Work it Out
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21 August 2006 @ 05:39 pm
I ate too much at lunch time. I had a HUGE plate of stuff and a cake afterwards. I think I might puke.
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18 August 2006 @ 07:20 pm
Bloody accommodation office sent me my lease TODAY! What use is that to me?! It has to be signed and deposit paid by TOMORROW! Not possible.
Fucking idiots, what do they expect from 2nd class post. BASTARDS!
I'm mad.

'Someone' sent me texts today saying they were scared, so at least I'm not feeling alone in the shitting myself room anymore.

I have to also get passport photos done tomorrow for student id things. For God sakes, there is so much to do and they want it all at once.
Current Music: Chamillionaire
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14 August 2006 @ 01:45 pm
I'm feeling a little overwhelmed right now. Uni is creeping up quickly and I'm starting to fall for Mariah Carey; The Latter is not good at all. She's such a bitch, but her songs are so fucking catchy.
Damn her.

I am so excited about this opportunity to exercise my right to independence, it's is rather rivetting, but all the same it is a huge jump in my life (as it is for everyone else).

I also managed to find something out about someone really close to me, which makes me happy. I now know how they really feel about themselves and why they feel that way. It's nice when they finally open up to you after 19 years.

Anyway, I'm off to town to get photos taken for my student id, i think that's what they're for anyway. byeex
Current Location: Room
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: Mariah Carey - Get your number
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09 August 2006 @ 02:17 pm
I couldn't sleep last night: Now I suffer for it.

However, I passed all my exams and got into UNI, so I'm fucking delighted.

I got:

Advanced Higher English - C
Higher Modern Studies - B
Higher Classical Studies - B
Higher RE - B

I couldn't be anymore happy than I am right now; I feel so warm inside.

It doesn't change the fact that I couldn't sleep though!
I feel like shit right now.
I have toast though, so that makes it a bit better.
Current Location: Bed Room
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: None.
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24 July 2006 @ 11:49 pm
No sex. Fuck off.

I keep thinking about Lost in Translation and the part at the end where he whispers in her ear but you never find out what he says. It's obvious the title plays off of this to some extent, but... I just want to know what he tells her.
Or do I? I don't know to be quite frank. If I knew I'd have nothing to think on right now, and I wouldn't be making this pretentious 'film critic' type entry.
I'm just a twat. HAHA.

But, the film does make you think about how real life is. Also that Hollywood glamourises everything. I mean, she's a gorgeous young woman, he's an old has been with saggy boobs, and she stills falls for him. So real life, because it does happen.

Hmm, I'm going to think on this some more and then come back, more pretentious than ever before. :)

love you
Current Location: Bed room
Current Mood: touchedtouched
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24 July 2006 @ 07:48 pm
Saturday night.

I went to Amanda's house for the night, with Larah.
I got massaged and watched movies featuring Winona Ryder, because she's amazing blatantly.
We had laughs, laughing tears and some more laughs. Tooth Brush Laughs are the best.


Need I say more?


Did exercise, did my hair, cleaned my room.
We made curry from scratch tonight, low fat curry, mmmmm, it was fucking gorgeous.
Then I rubbed my right eye and I thought I'd lost a contact lense. It was wedged up behind my eye. :(
Current Location: ROOM
Current Mood: chipperchipper
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22 July 2006 @ 02:10 pm
I had fucked up dreams last night, about giant flies, moths and Amanda flying a jumbo jet with me as a steward[ess] =O
Then, I got up, ate, dressed and went to the beach with the dog. THEN, fucking pollen set off my hayfever and my eyes started streaming and I couldn't see a thing. So I was on my hands and knees in the sand crying, trying to get my sight back.
Eventually I got home and washed my eyes etc etc.

Hayfever makes me want to die. :[
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: PCD
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21 July 2006 @ 05:12 pm
I got up and felt gross, it was so hot last night.
I slept with just the sheet on top of me, still I felt too hot.
Fucking hell. I went out on my bike in the early afternoon, to help tone up my flabby arse. It was roasting at the beach, completely & utterly. Richard & Judy are on right now, something I never watch, but is actually a bit entertaining.

My mood has lifted significantly since yesterday. I feel... more relaxed today. Perhaps I felt shit because we were out all day, everyday from monday, which knocked for six, excuse the cliche.

Hmmmm, I still REALLY want someone though, desperately. :[
Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
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20 July 2006 @ 11:16 pm
I'm roasting, well... kind of roasting, I was roasting, but now I'm all... sticky?
That sounds gross, but I get what I mean so that's all that matters ehh.

Air-con in the car = godsend.

My mood has significantly elevated since yesterdays drop, but I still feel a bit low. I think it is mainly the heat, it's pissing me off.
I don't want to be put the effort into doing my hair in the morning then sweating so much it goes curly again, fuck right off.

Waste of tiiiime.
Current Location: room.
Current Mood: okayokay
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19 July 2006 @ 05:01 pm
I had a nice day, but it's waaaaaaaay too hot. It was like 26 degrees, fuck off!

I'm sweating, it's not pleasant.

I feel pretty low right now, I think it's the heat. I feel like crying tbh.
Current Mood: sadsad
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18 July 2006 @ 04:48 pm
We went for a tour today, to surrounding islands and beaches. It was gorgeous. Finding Ardroil Beach was the best thing ever, it was fucking massive, biggest beach i've ever seen in my life. <3

Seeing things like this makes me feel warm inside.

And seeing houses like this makes me jealous.

Days out make me smile.
Current Location: Room.
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Pink - Who Knew
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17 July 2006 @ 11:51 pm
I'm tired and require a good nights sleep. Will I get that, mmmm maybe?

I don't sleep as well as I once did, I think it's because I was fat before and I needed more sleep. Maybe being all bones means you don't need as much snooze hours.
Who fucking knows?

Nine to Five is on BBC1, i want to watch it but I won't.

Current Location: bed room
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: silence.
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17 July 2006 @ 08:13 pm
I am happy, happier than I've been in a long time, but I still feel like there's something missing, or someone missing.

I want someone to cuddle and... well.... fuck, but I don't have that, which is a bummer.
I find myself constantly on a high then falling [metaphorically] to the ground after loneliness has winded me.

I find myself enjoying life, but I find that I'm enjoying it alone, or with friends, not with that one special person.

Maybe I am just being idiotic, but I can't help but be fixated on the thought of having someone to hold, etc etc.

Current Mood: lonelylonely